You and I are called to love
You and I are forgiven and free
You and I embrace surrender
You and I choose to believe
You and I will see who we were meant to be
I have many goals in life, but I have a relatively short list of things I have to do before I die. One of these things is I want to bring someone to Christ. Not just to have them say yes or have them pray the prayer, but to bring someone to love Christ – that they would grow in sincere love and worship of Him and follow him passionately for the rest of their time on earth. I feel like that is a much more daunting task than simply getting them to say yes.
On my list, I think this is definitely the thing that I’m the least in control of, but also the one that I desire the most. Obviously its not me or by any power that I have that someone will become a Christian or come to love Christ. On one hand that’s really comforting, on the other… well sometimes I feel like I need to be in control to make sure something is completed to the very end. In this case, I think its more comforting than worrying.
A couple days ago I read this verse from Jeremiah:
6 “Ah, Sovereign LORD,” I said, “I do not know how to speak; I am only a child.”
7 But the LORD said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am only a child.’ You must go to everyone I send you to and say whatever I command you. 8 Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you and will rescue you,” declares the LORD.
9 Then the LORD reached out his hand and touched my mouth and said to me, “Now, I have put my words in your mouth. 10 See, today I appoint you over nations and kingdoms to uproot and tear down, to destroy and overthrow, to build and to plant.”
Isn’t that amazing? It’s a good thing God is in control and not me. He is timeless, omnipotent, benevolent, majestic, powerful, holy, etc. Everything good, that’s what He is! And what am I? I’m just a child, wining, sinning, confused, wretched. Ya… good thing I’m not in control. And because I’m not, God has given me so much power! WOW, nations and kingdoms, building, planting, it all sounds so good 🙂
So anyway, there’s a friend that I’ve been thinking about, praying about. I’d say its a pretty cool story I’d love to share with anyone that asks (and sometimes share with those who don’t even ask). But yeeeees. The first time she came out to AACF with me, she had told me that she wasn’t a Christian, but she had been thinking about God for a while. Yesterday she didn’t come to LG, but for some reason God had me pray that I would be given the chance to talk and ask her exactly what she believed. I’m not confident in myself. During closing worship I thought of the words I would use, the way that I would turn conversations towards the subject. Today after our midterm, God gave me the perfect opportunity and I didn’t even have to do anything. She asked me to have lunch with her. I shot an arrow prayer and was determined that this was it. During lunch we talked about a lot of random things. Somehow our conversations always come back to the idea of God and Christianity. So I asked her. “Would you say now that you’re a Christian?”. After a second, she said yes 🙂 To make sure, I asked her what she thought of God, what exactly believed. She believes that Jesus died for our sins and that only through faith in him can we be saved. You have no idea. I was so excited. Not only has she come to Christ, but she’s excited to grow, she’s excited about ministry. She asked me how I got involved in doing all this ministry and she asked me before if she could go on the missions trip to Ensenada. She’s interested in joining my small group and she wants to know more about discerning God’s will in everything, plans for the summer, her relationship with her boyfriend. I’m so excited. I didn’t do anything. But to be a part of God’s great work… after we had lunch I was so excited I felt like I just had to tell someone. There was a certain someone that I thought to call. But then I didn’t. Instead I went back to my room and played guitar and praised Him for letting me be a part of this.
I realized today as I was pondering over it that when I first made my short list, it was filled with things that I wanted to do. Goals that I would accomplish. As good and Godly as those goals were (I mean, there’s nothing wrong with wanting to bring someone to Christ), I was expecting to fulfill them by what I would do. Instead God has shown me more that at least for this thing on my list, it should have been/is something I want to see God do. If I try by my own human efforts to change a persons life around… well I know I’m not qualified for that. Childish, wining, sinning, confused, wretched, afraid… that’s all I am. But God. Almighty. Worthy of all my praise. Strong and mighty tower. Yup, this is the power of Christ.
All we are
And all we have
Is all a gift from God that we receive
Brought to life
We open up our eyes
To see the majesty and glory of the King
He has filled our hearts with wonder